I want to be real with you guys. I want to share something I have been struggling with for a little while now. I feel maybe if I write it out it might help. So here I go.
I have been stressed and depressed for a long while now. The depression comes at random times and I get so stuck in my head that it is hard to get out. I always have to have music on to distract myself from myself. Like for example. I was walking to Denny's for a date and I lost my headphones so I did not have any music. That walk felt like it took so long and I started to overthink everything. I was very close to crying. I have not had that in two years.
I have been overthinking a lot lately. Thinking in deep thought on the stuff I need to get done. Such as saving for my own place, looking for a new job that I can actually support myself on. It is really getting to me. And also schooling. Right now I am going to school for my associate's degree in business management. But, as far as to what I want to do with my life I am unsure. Like baking or going to school, to be a makeup artist and such. I have never felt this level of stress before.
Some days are worse than others I just hope I can make it and figure out what to do.
And I'm sorry I don't post much on here. I kinda run out of things to talk about. Or I find myself repeating the same topics over and over again. Like a broken record.
Thanks for listening 😊
