I have decided to start learning to love myself. I have tried in the past, I haven't really loved myself. I am going to treat myself as I might love a best friend or a partner. I realized yesterday I am awful to myself and I don't want to become so bitter that I then start to treat other people badly. So today after I get done with the things I am supposed to. Like applying to even more jobs and pilates. ( I am devoted to doing pilates everyday this year) I plan to go on a short walk and just be with my thoughts. Like the way I am thinking about this is like dating myself. To get to know myelf again. I feel like I don't know myself anymore. What do I like and dislike? Who is Nugget? Well I am going to find out this year. Is it weird to be nervous about it? I don't know why I honestly don't. Time to get back into things and become a better person.
Speaking of like jobs and such. I revamped my resume and hopeful with a tiny bit of lying I can get a job. Yo girl needs money. Maybe not need but I really want money. So I can buy stupid stuff. Like what? you may be asking outloud right now. Like candy and a baby carrier for my cat. But, also to keep myself in lighting thats kinda important. Maybe important. So pray with me to the job gods that I get something soon. I need to start doing stuff outside these four walls. And I need to start enjoying my own company as well. I did enjoy myself yesterday. I did my workout and it was so nice. I am super sore but it was nice. So I want to get back into walking as well. To help more mentally and to see where I can take myself on solo dates. I do have a few gift cards to use up for coffee. I am starting to get excited with this. okay okay I am going to start doing what I need to do then head out. So stay tuned guys. I will be trying to stay consistent with myself. Devoted to me now. Woo
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