Depression

Being depressed is hard. And we all go through it. But what people dont understand is that its all valid. No ones depression is invalied. Depression hurts everyone mentaly.

I have depression and even though I dont have a lot in my life to be depressed I am. So it hurts more when people say what do you have to be depressed about?

Well for me and I'm sure a lot of you is its my own head. There is that voice that tells you. "You dont belong here." "They are only being nice cause they have too"

Those are the things that run through my mind. Mixed with old thoughts. Thoughts of me being fat or not smart enough. Its always there.

Most days are better than others. I have days where nothing can get me down and I feel great. Then I have my I'm going to stay in bed not eat and sit in the shower.

I havent found out the real reason for it. I dont really know why its there. As I'm sure most of you feel the same way.

I havent found out how to really manage it. You can mostly tell when I get depressed based on how I acted. I stop talking. I dont want to eat. I go on long walks and just think. I stare into space and think more. Its just this cloud of dark. Wish I knew what was wrong.

Hopefully I'll find out.

Most of the time to get out of this funk I listen to my favorite bands and drink coffee. I try to remeber that everything will be okay in the end. It almost always is ok. So matter what we go though in life things will get better. Its just is going to take time.

Just need to remember that we can do this and not to give up.