Young, dumb and broke

Yes those are lyrics. But, I feel those lyrics are somehow true to my case. Maybe yours too.
Yea I know I'm young. I'm young and I don't know what to do in life. If your like me you change what you want to do with your life. I have changed my mind so many times. Recently landing on being a chef.  Which I plan on doing.
Because I change it a lot it feels more like a hobby rather than what I want to do. So I feel so dumb. Last year I drove myself crazy with what I wantes to do. I would google collages and shit.
From psychology to art school. I am interested in a lot of fields. But none that seem to be where I want to go. Except now. Culinary school.
But, (now we come to the broke part)
I'm freakin broke. Which is why I'm searching for that job.
It has draw a back though. My anxiety. Anxiety is bad my friend. Which is why I won't film myself and do vlogs or lives on Instagram or Facebook. Because I go on and 1. No one shows and 2. I get tongue tied and forget how to speak.
A short term goal I have is to one day be able to do that. But for now I'm going to hide behind this screen.🙈
 The past couple of days this is just something I have been thinking about. Me being young dumb and broke.
But, its okay. Because everyone has to start somewhere. So I'm starting here. Trying to live life. :)

Starting life

Hey to anyone who actually read this. I'm back. I'm actually back this time and are going to try my best to post regular. The hardest part for me is that I don't set a goal. So I'm setting a goal now. Starting today I will be posting maybe every other day to once a week. Leave a comment as to which you would like to see.
 So what I'm going to try and do is treat this more as a journal. That anyone can read. Posting things like any adventures I go on. Which is not many. And just life stuff. How I feel about things. What life means to me. But, in all honesty I have no idea. Life to me is complicated. I have no idea on what I'm doing. Some days I love that and other days I wish I knew what to do. I know most people don't know what to either and are still trying to figure things out too.
All I know about myself at the moment is that I really want to try with my blog here. That I want to explore the world and have moments. Little moments and big. I also am wanting to go to culinary school and become some sort of chef. Maybe open my own diner. Cause with diners they are more about comfort food and that's what I want for people.
so I'll be posting about looking at schools and once I'm in school sharing what I have learned.
I have a lot to learn and I cant wait.
To learn and grow as a person. Because growing up my mind would always tell me I can't do anything. I want to prove myself wrong. So join me on this new adventure.
Leave comment saying I'm in if you are following. Cause that would mean something to me.