11:00 pm

So these past two days I have been thinking. I know I know that's dangerous 😂
I have been thinking about who I am now versed who I was 3 years ago and well the girl I was 3 years ago use to have a small sense of who she was. The girl I am now is lost. With no sense of who I am. I keep doubting everything about myself. Like when I go clothes shopping I look at all the clothes and wonder if I will actually wear or use it. It is like I don't know myself anymore.
I use to know who I was. Where I wanted to go in life. What I wanted to do. The places I would go and see.
  I know people change. But, don't they at least still know who they are after the change?
I just wish I had some sort of direction to head in. Hopefully one day I will know who I am. That's what this journey is about right? Self-discovery and stuff. The only thing is is that it is not like those coming of age movies you see. This feels more alone. Especially with not that many friends in the mix. The movies make everything seem so romantic and glamorous.
I can't wait to find myself. Maybe then I and she can have coffee together and caught up.

My morning routine

So every morning I try to get up at the same time every day. Which is around 7. I set an alarm but I always wake up around 7. Sometimes before the alarm goes off or when the alarm goes off. 

Once my alarm goes off I lay there and think about why I decided to get up at this time in the first place all to which I have no freaking clue. 

When I finally do get up I stumble my way to the bathroom like a zombie that has a hangover. (not that I know what that would feel like to a zombie. Do zombies feel hangovers?) Then once I finally find my way into the bathroom I brush my teeth and change. Since starting yoga I have been doing it every morning. 

After my yoga, I change yet again. Which since being winter is cold. so the thought of changing seems a bit much for me. But, I do it. (Although I sometimes just change back into my pajamas and wear those the rest of the day) 

After that, I go downstairs and drink one of the only reasons to get up every morning. That amazing good coffee. ⛾

Then I sit down with my life source and drink that. Trying to become a functioning adult for the day. keyword try. I normally fail. 😂

That's when I talk with my mom and we go over our plans for today and what we would like to get done. That's about it. It is not that exciting. But, I thought I'd share. 

 Please leave a comment for anything else you would like me to write about. 

Vlogging?

So this year as I have said before If I have mentioned it before. That I want to start vlogging. Like it probably won't be anything like any of the popular YouTubers you see but, maybe something good. I want to actually try this year. I wanted to do it last year but was not that consistent with it so I wound up with a lot of gaps between each video. And not that many people was interested in it. Like here. So because I have had a lot of experience with that I'm going I'm try again. And because I have some confidence to do it. i have also come to realize that it does not have to be perfect. Like with amazing editing and music and effects.
 That was my problem before and why I never really made new videos. Then I got stuck in this whole I look like an idiot and No one is going to watch any of this that I post. So I deleted all my content. I think all that is on there now is a couple playlists I made. That probably only contain a couple songs.

So yea starting more video content. I am unsure on how much I will be posting to be honest. I'm playing around with different editing and stuff. Things that I did not have when I last started doing videos.
Okay now I'm just rambling so I'll wrap this up now.
Please keep a look out for my videos and comment on this post for what kind of videos you would like to see. 😁💖👽

Update on life and other thoughts

I have decided over the weekend that I want to start doing yoga. Because I read somewhere that its good for your mental heath and physical. So I figured I would start that and see if how it effects me mentally for 30 days. This year I want to do a lot of 30 day challenges. So to start yoga then I might do going vegetarian for 30 days.
 But I can't start the yoga one till my period is over. I have no idea as to why that's what my mom says and she is certified in yoga so she knows what she is talking about. All this is a part of my new year new me thing.
Also I am going to take up vlogging as well so you will be seeing me on YouTube again. So keep an eye out for that. I just need to wait till my period is over and find some editing software. So if you guys know of any good free editing software please comment. Please. Thank you so much.
I have been doing a lot a lot of thinking this past weekend and i want to get out there more. So YouTube might help with all this. At least that is what I'm hoping for.
So I'm hope if I am dedicated enough to blog or vlog my experience and how it effects me.
Because my brain works best starting on a Monday I'm going to start there. I can't wait to get started.
😊

A little adventure

I am trying not to suck at this but it seems I am. So as a beginner adventurous person. I am going to try my best to be real with you guys. To whoever reads this. I'm doing this for me. To record everything. This blog is labeled Wonderland gypsy. I am a gypsy at life. Traveling in the seance of life. So I need to start living up to it by blogging my adventures. No matter what they are. Spirital or something I learned. I just need to be more adventurous. So as of in the next couple of days therefore I can really think about all this and think about what I want to do first. I will be more adventurous in life then when I can travel and see new places. I know for one thing I want to travel El Paso more. This seems like a really cool city. A city in which needs to be explored a little. And I will as soon as I am comfortable with doing something like that.
 When I was younger and I'm sure most of you guys have done this. Stuck your nose deep deep down in a book and became the character. And for hours till late at night fought ghosts, demons, villians or no villians. I have all the time. There was nothing more exciting then getting a new book from the library.
I still am excited about getting new books its just now on Kindel.
But, I want to actually live a good life you know? Like the ones I would read about. i want to be able to say I did something when I grow old. So this year is it. Can't wait to share them with you guys. If anyone is really reading. Thank you to the ones who are. It means a lot.