I feel like Alice when she is talking with the blue caterpillar. When he says "Who R U?" and she replies with. "I hardly know sir for you see I have changed so much today as I do not know myself"
I have changed so much since this time last year that I don't know who I am. And you could consider it the be a crisis.
But, I'm not going to go am buy frivolous things. For they are just things.
Instead its more like posing as different people. Like I have a personality disorder. I have gone through so many different styles that looking back. I don't reconise.
Like when Alice changes from one size to another. Its all confusing. And even though I don't have people asking "Who R U?" I am asking myself that. And I don't know. I really don't. It is a rollercoaster ride. And I go around in my head. With go with what you like and love. But, even as I do that I feel like a poser. Always pretending. 😒
Like honestly how can one overcome this feeling? How?
That's what I want to figure out but don't know where to start.
Another thing to add to that list of what makes me feel like a gypsy in wonderland.
The feeling of no home and no identity.
I honestly hope all this makes sense. For I don't know how to go about explaining any other way.
All I know right now is that I have put so much pressure on who I am. I just hope I am able to find out who I am.
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