Finding myself

I'm going to reinvent myself. Dye my hair, get that job, and save all my money. I'm going to start selling my art. And be more creative than I have ever been. 

I want to change myself. To whom I am not sure. I just don't want to be this sad person anymore. I don't want to sit here every day and stare into nothing. Thinking about how everything feels like it's falling apart. And I'm still am not sure what my purpose is in life. 

I don't know what I want to do because what I want changes all the time. 

I am even trying to learn about auto mechanics. Watching videos on that. because I am very interested in that. Its never too late to learn about things. 

I just don't want to be this sad person anymore. So I'm going to do what I can to change that. To figure out another side of me.