Life has taken a huge turn for the worst. At least that is how it feels. Right now I'm unemployed and am dealing with a lot mentally. Mostly with depression and anxiety. Depression being the bigger of the two. I am seeing not a therapist but a counselor. She has been helping with all that she can.
I'm still job-hunting but, it is taking a lot out of me. I start to feel like I'm not getting anywhere and that is a bit frustrating. Because all that I can do is apply and call to make an interview. I don't have control over whether they are hiring right now or not. I am trying to remember that and am trying to keep a positive outlook on things.
On top of all that things are getting a bit lonely with everyone being inside all the time. For a short time last week, I didn't feel lonely. A friend of mine found a stray kitten under her porch and gave her to me because she knew I wanted a kitty. So for a short while, I had a pet. She was the greatest. I named her Dinah after the kitten in Alice In Wonderland. She was 3 weeks old. Her mom abandoned her. So I became her mom. I did my best to take care of her. Now she was sick. I didn't know until it was too late. She passed a few days later. I took it hard. I loved that kitten. I am still sad. That has made this past week hard. I miss her so much.
Every day seems to get harder and harder. I feel like I am spirling.
Thank you to the person who left a comment on the last post. ❤
I'm so sorry all that happened that fast, maybe you could make Dinah a little memorial thing, doesn't have to be anything specific(or big), that's what I do when I lose pets, I find that it helps me when I am grieving. You gave her a very good life and gave her love, while you had her, and I'm very sure she appreciated it. I know I don't know you but you seem like you care a lot and that's what every animal deserves. I hope your job situation improves, I'm sure it will very soon, it's been hard for everyone I think lately with all of this going on. I myself do not live in a city type place, but it has been very lonely, so I understand that feeling well. Also, just hold on, things will get better, it may take a while but life is ever changing, not always bad and not always good, hang in there, you got this. xx- J (hope you feel better soon, I'll try to be here when you post if it don't bother you. I don't want to over step. I don't have a lot going on outside of work.)
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