I don't know how to keep myself afloat in the real world. I am learning things the hard way. Please don't hate me and laugh and point telling me welcome to the real world. I am already getting that.
I never knew stress until now. I never knew why people were depressed about rent. Until now. I never knew any of what I know now till it all came crashing down and I am now trying to hold myself afloat. I have done things I am not proud to admit. I have had to ask people for money. Something I hate doing.
I see the adults in my feed and I just stare in awe wondering how you all are able to keep yourself afloat. And if you are faking it you are doing so well.
I know crying solves nothing. But, it's all I have been doing. Then laugh it off if anyone asks about it. I am so tired of pretending everything is fine when it is clearly not. I am still going through. It's all I can do.
So to all the adults going through shit. You guys are awesome. You really are I admire you guys.
I'm 27 years old and I still don't have life figured out, I have a job because I got lucky... if I hadn't got lucky I'd still be struggling due to my disability and lack of university... honestly what keeps me going is just determination to stay alive.. being an adult is one of the hardest things in the whole world(getting harder with the state of the world we live in) and anyone who says it's not is LYING... all adults struggle some way or another, whether it be financial or emotionally or physically, it's just part of it I guess, that's the only thing I can tell you, YOU ARE NOT ALONE <3... if I hadn't grown up poor I'd never knew about how to get food stamps and that I could get them, so I can understand that, I hope things look up for you soon.. and honestly I cry all the time it's a perfectly healthy way to release stress and whatever you're feeling... it's okay to not be okay... trust me, I'm not okay either...
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