I have no clue if I’m having like a manic episode or what but I feel like I’m a badass today. Like I just feel like I’m the shit. I know it sounds conceded but it’s how I have been feeling. It’s giving main character vibes to me. And I’m all for it. Especially since February I have been in a weird slump. I didn’t want to go anywhere or do anything except rot in bed. I still kinda want to rot in bed. But in like a more main character type of way. Almost like I am romanticizing my life. I’m dressing how I want. I’m not caring about what people say. I’m even starting to drink wine again. Not going crazy with it though.
I’m trying to just have fun with my life. At least for a little while. Because I do want to be happy. I mean actual happy. Like dancing through the streets crazy happy. I haven’t ever been that type of happy before. But I want to make myself that happy. Life sucks a lot. I want to see if I can make it suck less. Maybe even try and make friends. Or try and hang out more with the few I have. Either way I want to try and have fun. And be myself again. Weird, semi creative and myself. Without judgement.
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